Great article. Ironically, yesterday I wrote an article about my shame around the fear of gaining weight. I feel my fears are perpetuating diet culture and the fatphobic society we live in - all while I advocate against it. I was apprehensive to comment here because I am in a smaller body and because of my history of anorexia, weight gain still terrifies me despite knowing better. I don't judge larger bodies any differently than any other body - I don't place the moral value we see in the outside world like Insta, yet it's an internal trauma of sorts around my stomach region. Anyway, I just wanted to be vulnerable and share my thoughts which are the other side of yours yet carry the same message. Despite the ED type, the feelings can be the same. I have the exact problem as the phrase I highlighted above - weight stigma has become so ingrained I can't seem to untangle myself from it no matter how hard I try. And I am so ashamed of my fear of gaining weight as it goes against every value I have intellectually. Talking about it is the first step from taking some of it's power away. Thank you for starting a conversation about this and even though hearing this won't change the internal narrative, you deserve to do all of the things you fear that your perception of weight keeps you from. I wish you the best in continuing your journey of self acceptance. For me, it doesn't go away, but I'm learning to tolerate and lean into the discomfort. It's the only way out in my opinion.