I felt reluctant to clap for this because my heart broke for you and clapping didn't feel right. But I did anyway - a lot - because I appreciate you sharing your painful story. I had a similar experience I've written extensively about and continue to and find it healing. It sounds like you did the right thing - sometimes putting an animal who is suffering through additional pain for only a few more days isn't worth it. I did that and forever regret not letting him die peacefully. I think whatever we do we look back and glorify the outcome of the oath we didn't take. I am so sorry for your loss.