I hung onto every word of this. Thank you for sharing your experience - the feelings many of us feel but remain silent about. Starting a conversation is healing not only to yourself, but to others - thank you for that gift. You model hope and the reality that we're not alone in our feelings, the feelings we don't hear shared nearly enough. You have a depth to you that was built by crafting something beautiful out of your pain. I am glad you survived, and I know I am not the only one.