Thank you so much for honestly sharing your journey. I related to so much of what you said. ED are real regardless of the criteria of the weight/BMI. On a similar note, higher weight anorexia is extremely common and not only goes unnoticed, but doctors prescribe weight loss for health! It's so sad. Constipation has been the story of my life. I wrote an article here that you might appreciate about the lack of research between constipation and ED and the correlation I see. Mentioning this without the intent of self-promoting but rather developing an honest conversation about this under researched area - you might find it interesting. It can be found scrolling through my stories. Thank you again for sharing your journey and everything you feel is valid and the prison in our minds is (in my opinion) the worst part of the ED, I also seek that freedom, but its so elusive.